The Photoseries Newfangled/Erneuerungssüchtig was created from 2023 and is an ongoing series that will be updated biannually.
I’ve been buying clothes I don’t wear in public out of fear of being seen and the potential reactions to them that fuel my shame, but the promise of gender euphoria and status make the clothes irresistible not to buy, so they either hang in their dust bags or are secretly worn in the comfort of my own four walls. Here I can emulate the fantasy that I see in advertisements everyday. By taking these pictures I’m desensitizing myself in order to slowly incorporate feminine clothing to my usual style. I’m pushing the line of what I am confident enough to wear in public.
step by step...
Its like a rehearsal
to find my confidence.
Practicing my shame away.
I’ve been buying clothes I don’t wear in public out of fear of being seen and the potential reactions to them that fuel my shame, but the promise of gender euphoria and status make the clothes irresistible not to buy, so they either hang in their dust bags or are secretly worn in the comfort of my own four walls. Here I can emulate the fantasy that I see in advertisements everyday. By taking these pictures I’m desensitizing myself in order to slowly incorporate feminine clothing to my usual style. I’m pushing the line of what I am confident enough to wear in public.
step by step...
Its like a rehearsal
to find my confidence.
Practicing my shame away.